St. Patrick's day

It sucked for me this year. I rather not have sex than to have bad sex and I would rather be drunk and throw up or drink and sleep, then to be drinking and feel sober with bad sex. I can't lie it was bad and I feel bad for myself because I could have had better. Damn.
If you're going to drink and have sex, make sure it is good, because you remember the good and bad.

Everything

Everything except my grades qnd on some days exercise have been lacking lately. Disappointed.

i just like the instrumentals

Idk .1

Slept from 3-6 now 7:30 and all I want to do is go back to sleep. I just want to go to sleep til 2020 maybe then I will feel like I have a purpose. Right now I want to cry my key out, which will make me feel better both emotionally and mentally for a bit, then my mind starts to go into overdrive. I feel like my feelings are always hurt, but there isn't anyone around. Then there are times that I am just so damn angry that I just want to hurt people and I'm ok with that, I just get so aggravated with people, I would like to see most not exist though. Maybe my mind is playing tricks on me.

Idk

<p>I had just finished talking a shower and as I was getting dressed I wanted to cry. About 130 pm 1/22/12<br>
I want to cry I am so confused. I want to be around ppl sometimes and then I think I just want to be left alone. I don't know what to do when I am around ppl and I don't know what to do without them. I mean I feel like I am stuck. I feel like I am just going through the motion of just being alive. I feel out of it all the time, like I'm having an out of body experience through our most of the day like I'm in a daze it something. And when that isn't happening I feel anxious trying to talk to ppl sometimes. I don't know what to with me.

I have felt angry about nothing for the last two days and then very sad for about another few hours after. And now a little happy.1/16/12

Ok a few days later and I now just feel so aggravated. I want company but not like this anymore or maybe because he bores me.  Nah I think I need to start planning and writing things down, hopefully it will allow me to stay focus  and for a refreshing change my may clear. 1/21/12.

He tried I guess

<p>Well I have a friend with benefits, and he is always trying to get me to squirt.&#160; Now the problem is I can squirt, just not with him and I don't know why. So I got two vibrators. Now we tried one so far. A G- spot.tickler, and nothing, well I squirted a bit, but not as much as I should have. I don't know what is wrong. Normally I would have soaked through like six towels and I can't even make a puddle. I would like a tip or something, because he tells me he can feel it and I can't let it out no matter how much I try. Maybe it's him. Or maybe he is right and I'm stuck in my mind. This is disheartening because I thought a vibrator would help with the extra stimulation. Aaaaahhhh heeeeeeellllllpp meeeeeeeee!